Long Distance Love Song

This is a piece I wrote a while back, but I thought it was fitting given my ambivalent feelings about leaving home again...even for a short while.

Here I am

Once again

Saying good-bye

To you

My love

An occurrence to frequent to be accidental

You must wonder how I remain faithful

I always return to you

Changed but somehow

Untouched

I will have walked cold winter streets

Framed by concrete giants, man’s monstrosity

Stealing light earlier than nature intended

I begin to think this excursion, this experiment

Lasted five years longer than was necessary

Forgetting, or willing myself believe

That I would be willing to give up any of these moments

The holidays

The special days

The Mondays, the Thursdays

And the late night phone calls

Tell me I have lost much more than a mere three hours

The cycle repeats

To be honest

I am tired of leaving

Tired of the 2 and 2 packing scheme

Tired of the short stays and long good-byes

Looking to you through distant windows

And yet

I can’t seem to stay

Seem born to run

In search of a dream

A freedom I have yet to find

I will miss your warm kiss

Once on each cheek

My forehead

As I close my eyes on breeze-cooled beach sands

I will miss your long shadows challenging palm trees too tall for their own good

Refusing to fall

We refused to fall

My chest feels heavy from the altitude change at take off, my ears pop

I will look out the window

You look so small

So simple, so put-together

You will go on without me

You will understand my transient ways

Because you know it will only make me love you that much more

We stabilize

My chest is still heavy

My heart is still heavy

As this plane keeps flying

Creating miles between you and me

I begin to wonder if the heart knows proximity

If the heart knows the difference between 300 and 3000 miles

I feel your pull

Tapping my shoulder in reminder

Come back to me soon

Come home soon

I have left you in the darkness

Under the cover of night so you may not realize I am gone

When sunlight hits again there will be no cheeks, no forehead to kiss good morning

You will remember me

Because I am yours

That I am you, where ever my feet are planted should be of no surprise

You will wake up to the new day without me

And I will wake in a new bed

But live each tomorrow knowing that

I will always come back for you